My Life As I See It

Late Sunday evening Billy and I were talking about my ex-boyfriends/relationships. It really started to upset me so I asked Billy to drop it. It took a few requests but he agreed and said we would talk about it some other time. Later that Sunday night my jaw got REALLY tight and my teeth started grinding. By 4am Monday morning my gums on the right side of my face were bleeding and hurting big time! I went to the Emergency Room. They said my jaw muscles spasm and for some reason my jaw clenched and my teeth started grinding the gums on the right side of my mouth. They had to give me Ativan and Dilauded to relax me and kill the pain. I was sent home with prescriptions for Ativan and Percocet and was told to see my Psychiatrist.

I don't see my Psychiatrist until July 28th! So I saw my regular doc to hold me over until I do see my new Psychiatrist. She gave me anti-inflammatory cream and muscle relaxants for my jaw.

I saw Marla yesterday too. She and I had a long discussion about what happened (I had a PTSD "flare-up") and I reacted to the stress by grinding a hole into my gums. Marla called in a couple of favors and got me in to see another Psychiatrist a week sooner. I also have my appointments for the next three weeks set with Marla.

I am in SO much pain! I can only eat "soft" foods like pudding, mashed potatoes, Jell-o, etc. I have torn up my jaw and my gums something fierce. All over something I didn't want to talk about.